eli5 what is disassociating? Tried looking online but I don’t understand.
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Dissociating is a problem I’ve had my entire life as I developed C-PTSD from my loving family.
I’ll try to explain my experience:
Say I’m at a gathering of friends. There are 8 people in total. These are people that I’ve grown up with and am comfortable around. I always start out focusing on the conversation and the events taking place, but I slowly start feeling my focus drifting until my body seems to be running on autopilot while my mind is just elsewhere. I experience none of the emotions my friends are experiencing, I listen to their conversations but I don’t actually HEAR any of it. I remember nothing. The entire experience of spending quality time with my friends has been reduced to just another jumbled mess in my head that I can’t quite piece together. I barely know what was said and it just makes me feel like more of an outsider.
The biggest problem for me is that this happens every. single. day. In every. single. encounter I have. I always feel so far removed from everyone and everything.
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