what exactly is the concept known as “ego death”?

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what exactly is the concept known as “ego death”?

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I’ve had it when I accidentally consumed far more magic mushrooms that I should have because a friend of mine had cultivated and dried them perfectly and they were way too easy to eat. I ended up eating 6g of perfectly dried shrooms, which is 1g over Terence McKenna’s suggested ‘heroic dose’.

Started off feeling extremely weird. Could not hold a bottle of water properly to drink. Past trauma really rearer its head for a moment where I was certain and paranoid that there was something wrong with me. Everything was becoming blurred. Then I switched into being pretty sure that I had died, aa though I was sure I was experiencing the minutes after death in spirit form.

Then every physical sense just dissolved, and my ‘spirit’ went on this massive trip through what I assume was my life journey, in some form. I can’t actually articulate that experience entirely because it goes beyond words and I can’t actually remember the details to narrate it adequately. What I do remember is letting out the deepest, most guttural laughs I’ve ever had, which reverberated throughout the forest we were in and made my friends say ‘oh my god’, who hadn’t had quite as much as me. In retrospect, I’m now pretty sure those laughs were symptomatic of a healing process. The resentment I’d hung on to appeared incredibly silly in the face of what I was seeing, and so I learned that people are way more valuable than being right or holding grudges. Despite that I have cause to be angry at a lot of things, the things that came up in that trip were healed in that they just don’t carry any emotional weight anymore that is capable of bringing me down.

I’m quite sure that I’ve had an extent of clarity in my life since then that I’d only very rarely experienced before. I consider myself extremely lucky because I’m now very cognisant, empathetic but also strong and able to deal with things. I’m under 30 and, to be honest, often feel like I’ve magically attained the wisdom of somebody far older.